Till i was handed a guilt trip...

Woke up in the arms of the man I love and had to rush off to work. Didnt bother me much, cuase how much better can you start out a day?

At work, I had my two cups of coffee and started in on the days work. Usually this takes a while for me to get going, but today I just jumped right in. Even took a lunch break up to McDonalds!

When I get back, theres this lovely email sitting in my outlook inbox filled with guilt.

So that was my "good day" turned, "I feel like shit" day >:]

Btw, if you're reading and your the one that sent that email. I understand how you feel. This time is difficult for both of us. I'll try my hardest to not let it happen again. I really do love you guys. I hope you know that.

Posted by Posted by Sandra at 4/17/2009



My cousin asked me how the Iron Maiden show went, and it took me a while to get around to telling him about it, so I made up by making it a very extensive description of everything that went down :] here goes:

ok, shame on me, its been a week and I havent contacted you about the concert


well now that that is over!

IT WAS AMAZINGGG!!!! like my status says, I'm still in shock! lol lets see, I had to skip two classes so that I could go. but one class was art history, where we only had to turn in a paper (and descuss the paper, but i just wrote a summary instead) and then I missed speech class, but it was a speech giving day and I had already given mine. So I drove to Charlies house, and from there Him, Steven, Keith, Rich and I hopped into Charlies car and we started our way down to Sunrise, about a 3 hour drive. oh, and we didnt make any stops lol, Steven(Charlies best friend) told us ahead of time that Charlie doesnt make stops... ever.. lol. so we made it to sunrise(the city the concert was going to be in) which is just north of miami, at the bank atlantic center. we stopped by the hotel first to drop off all our over night stuff, met up with twiggs and his gf sabrina, hung out for a bit and then headed over. we had two extra tickets so we tried to sell them before we got in the stadium, but we could only sell one. we didnt do it ilegally lol, we sold them for cost, well just the one, so we were actually in the whole, but thats what we get lol. so we headed in, thank goodness i didnt bring a bag with me or I would have had to stand in a way longer line. but then we got into the mass blob of a line for the merch booth. they had a special shirt for them visiting florida and i really wanted that one but they sold out before i got to the front of the line. so i got a different one. from there we went to our seats, and waited, and waited, and waited! then finally someone came out on stage, and it didnt look like anyone from maiden, and then a chick started singing, and it was ehhh, i didnt really like it, sounded kinda like within temptation, but more rockish, and not as much tallent. turned out to be the basists from maiden's daughter, so it was fitting in that sense, but not musically. ((this is when my phone died)) and then FINNALLY!!! Iron Maiden came out!! they started with the winston churchill video and opened with the ace of spades and then it lasted for a good two hours!! they played a lot of songs i didnt know, I'll ask charlie what some of them were later and let you know cause i remember them saying some of them were unexpected to be played at a concert. then twards the end they finally brought out the big eddie, he came out to the sarcophagus behind the stage and towered over the stage! we were up so high that we actually didnt get to see him that well except on the screens on the side. then they had futuristic eddie come out and he was at least 20' tall! he came out and the guitarist stood between the tall eddie, it was awesome! then they played number of the beast for the first of the encore songs and there were two animatronic devils on either side of the stage that were just about at tall as the tall eddie, but they were sitting, so it was just the heads moving. then shortly after it was over ;.; then in our satisfied states we headed back to the hotel for some much needed pizza and drinks. there were some pretty interesting people at the hotel, charlie smokes so we kept going down to the front of the hotel, and it was... interesting lol. by the time we werw about to go to sleep, me and charlie were the last to sleep, we tried to stay in the room, but we ran out of blankets an pillows, we stayed about 20 minutes but we both woke up at the same time shivering so we went to his car and slept there lol. we also ended up being the first to wake up lol. then when we got everyone up we headed back to charlies house. i wanted to stop by the beach but the other people that got a ride (Steven, Keith and Rich) wanted to go home right away. so we went home... no stops again lol. it was fun :]

well I hope all that makes up for not telling you about it sooner :]

anything i miss? lol

Thats it! thanks for reading :]

Posted by Posted by Sandra at 4/09/2009



"Hi my name is Sandra!"


- moving out
- money
- school


Moving Out:
Yes, you heard it! I will be moving out on the first of May. This really isnt final, but I want it to be with all my might. The only things in my way, is my boss paying me and a small lack of information needed to move out. I havent seen the lease, although I know its for a year, I am unsure of any breach of conctract fees if I decide that moving out is too much money for me to handle. So far what I've heard is that I will "feel guilty" for making them pay my share if I move back home or away before the year is up.

The house itself is adorable. Its a three bedroom two bathroom house with a large living room and a small kitchen lol. It's located close to home and a bit farther from work, but thats fine.
I think my parents want me to move out as a way to grow up and become my own person, but they werent expecting it to be for no reason at all. What I mean, is that they were thinking that I would either move away to college or move out with a husband/boyfriend. In my opinion this is a better idea, because I'll be able to do this on my own and not with the help of a college or a boyfriend/husband person. I dont want to have to rely on a man.

As far as cost goes, I'll be able to handle living on my own for a year. Its actually the perfect time because school is going to be out the day I move in and I'll be able to work more. This would be nice if I could get a consistant pay from my boss. Right now he's a week late with my check. I've also got my hostessing job on the side that I'm only counting as extra unreliable money that can be saved.

I've also got a Christmas bonus coming from the boss, and I still have my tax return that I have yet to do! I've got plans to do it wednesday night with mom, hopefully i get a hefty sum back, that would be very nice.

If all goes as planned I should be completely fine for my first year financially.

First I want to say that I will NEVER quit school. It may be a pain in my backside, and it may take all the money I ever hope to have in the future, but I'll be damned if I dont finish at least a masters in some field!

If I can pass all my classes this semester I will only have to take 4 more to finish my AA. and to me that is a godsend. To finish my AA would be probably the greatest thing in the world. Thats when I can start worrying over the next part of schooling.

If i can take two classes over the summer and two in the fall, that will give me enough time in the spring to save up mega bucks to go to University. Where? I'm not sure yet, I can only hope.


- Moving out is deffinitely a possibility.
- Money wont be as much as an issue as I thought it would be.
- School will be something attainable.

"Thank you all for listening, have a great day!"

Posted by Posted by Sandra at 4/06/2009