you ever feel like your life is set on repeat?

i feel like mines been like that for the past two years,

is this a normal feeling?

do people going through life feel the same as me?

sometimes i wish i had more motivation in me.

dont think that I am unhappy with my life, its quite the contrary

i have a wonderful life, loving parents and a great boyfriend, with some good friends as well

ah well, thats my post for today

Posted by Posted by Sandra at 3/27/2009




Posted by Posted by Sandra at 3/11/2009



And that makes me one of the happiest people alive!

Yes I do realize I am at work and that I have another two hours to go, but non the less I am very happy and content at the moment.

I love my boyfriend

I just wanted to get that off my chest, I do love him and I dont think that he relizes just how much I do. He means more to me that any one outside of my family ever has. Even best friends... (sorry best friends lol, but you know what I mean, cause I know you've felt it too)

My boyfriend is a great person. He is everything I need him to be. And its ok that he doesnt text me constantly throughout the day, otherwise I would never get any work or school work done haha. It's quite healthy you could say. He's so special to me. Some of you may not see it, but he really is.


Well this is something that I dont think I've ever gone into detail with. And I need to. No you should define a relationship, but you should know what it is at least. My relationship with my boyfriend is a learning experience for me. I've never been in a relationship where I've had to think about the other person, but I like it very much . I like having him there to think about, and I love that he's probably thinking of me as well. He's great company, even if its quiet sometimes all I have to do is look into his eyes and everything is alright.

Is this lust?

In my opinion, no. Although I'm too close to see it for what it really is. But for me, he is something more than just "a learning experience" he's my love. And I mean that. The love we share is special, and only something that people who have been in love can understand, I know that because I remember a time before I loved, and I always wondered what it was like. Now I am able to say that you will know what it is when you feel and have it. It truely is a great feeling. So warm and comfertable, I just dont know how else to explain it.

Moving on?

This post was ment to be about how invcredibly hyper I am right now, but it turns out that I just talked about my boyfriend the entire time... well then, I guess thats ok. Gave me something to do and now I understand more of whats going on in my life than I did before. And for that I am thankful.

thank you for reading, whom ever you are, and please try to have as great a day as I am having.

Posted by Posted by Sandra at 3/06/2009